purpose on earth

2009-08-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

OMG>>>

it's FIXED.

Oh MY. it is really fixed... jus when i started blogging at LJ. if i blog at LJ, is it still consider blogging??? cos its at livejournal.

oh well. no one reads anyway.

Now, i'm fickle minded. here or there???

2009-08-05T13:12:00.000+08:00

MOVED TO http://wileen.livejournal.com/

2009-08-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

there's still smth wrong with blogger. SIGH

Hello God

2009-07-06T15:00:00.002+08:00

The story is about a bright and innocent 27 years old guy (Yoo Gun) with an IQ of 65, who is neglected by society because of his problems, but fights hard to overcome them. Seo Eun-Hye (Kim Ok Bin), a a fumbling swindler is a woman who thinks love is nothing more than sadness and difficulties piling up one after another... until our "Forrest Gump" shows up and turns her life upside down.

http://www.mysoju.com/hello-god/

One slice of choc amer ain't enough... =) yummy!

2009-06-19T13:01:00.000+08:00

Will be in HK for 5 days frm 22 june!

=)

h.y.b

2009-06-01T11:35:00.001+08:00

around this time, he shld be arriving taiwan AGAIN. sigh... HUGE sigh...

y not here?

irritated

2009-05-30T12:02:00.001+08:00

it's so irritating, with the CLICK CLICK advertisement clicking away while u surf the NET!!!

2009-05-12T20:40:00.003+08:00

Pics of fluffy rabbits at pet lover's centre at Anchorpt. was looking out for a sign if it says to taking pics of it. n i COULDN't Find IT!. so i took pics. then one staff came over n say no taking of pic. bloody idiot. WHERE's THE SIGN HUH???

it's weird seeing a batch of HOs becoming MOs now. WEIRDDD.

how come i dun see him anymore eh???

i hate tracheostomy...

zzz

2009-05-04T13:37:00.002+08:00

working night again. sigh. better than am/pm shifts i feel.

it's a nice surprise to see .... anchorpoint. =) a very nice surprise indeed.

zzz
this blog is kinda boring .
cos i'm a boring person. sigh

jodi picoult bks are really thought provoking. love it =)

dun wana go back to work, wearing masks the whole shift. torturous.

jus ate mac. yummy! shall eat hot fudge now. hmm

2009-04-14T20:28:00.002+08:00

moi don'''t wana go to work... grrrrrrr

i've been chasing after this show boys before flowers, buying MANY clothes online, shopping, painting my nails for fun, n eating veri full lately.

Y is it that mothers stop their child frm being with their bf / gf? not frm experience but frm DRAMA. do that happen in real ?

anyway... i miss h.y.b ... new album coming out soon, in bout, hmm, 3 mths time??!!! so long la...
nites have been terrible, but i hate am/pm shifts more. sigh...

talk to me ppl... i get really bored in gatherings. *Yawn*

tml gonna spend alot for my COUSIN belated belated b'dae. yummy jap buffet with movie watching. =)

2009-03-26T13:58:00.003+08:00

managed to scrape thru passing of bcls. back of my hand still ache. poor us... enjoying my day off watching VIDEOS!!! my butt, legs n arms hurt just after one day of CPR. its a gd workout exercise huh...

happy! =)

my sis has gone for chalet the past 4 days, n i've been playing her DS!
i'm kinda hooked on playin CAKE MANIA now... like diner dash.

4 days without her equals PEACE. haha. hope she doesn't see this. we're getting more slp without her watching tv late in the nite. she's coming hm today i think...

2009-03-24T20:22:00.002+08:00

Looking back, for a while, i forgot why i was so angry during the prev post. LOL. strange sia.

anyway, tml is BCLS. slightly afraid.

now reading anson hu news after so long.
had terrible night shifts the prev wk. but God has been really good to me. =)

i realise some ppl show their true colours after getting to knowing them.
some drs are really gd. =) some NOT.

i hate tests n presenting, esp my stupid mistake in front of ppl.

AL from this thurs to sunday! yippee.

i still miss anson hu, wished he'll come to this not so small dot to hv a concert. *** sighs

some things don't change. =)

right now

2009-03-06T20:50:00.002+08:00

RIGHT NOW... I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO STRANGLE ALL THESE F..... DRS , giving me SUCH TROUBLE, irritating the HECK out of ME.

Thanks alot, but NO THANKS. i hope this mth could end n all can be changed AGAIN.

i'm so tired, i'm afraid of having my legs cramped again in the nite.

2009-02-27T20:08:00.002+08:00

i haven brushed my teeth for 24 hrs... y? cos i worked nite, n i haven sleep yet... oops =x

veri bo liao, i noe. =)
send pt to ICU again during nite shift. y ME?

2009-02-08T21:52:00.002+08:00

I went to New Creation Church today! wHy??? Because my aunt is treating me MACS breakfast! Haha, tgt with free and forced K BOXING. =D My cousin is kinda forced to sing with me. i needed to de stress BADLY after working 3 weeks of four days night shift. i don't understand y certain ppl DUN SLP AT ALL. i wonder how i'm like when i sleep. talking in my slp? moving around restlessly? hitting ppl? strangest things happens in the nite.

de-stressing also includes... RETAIL THERAPY!, watching online vids, meeting ppl esp family, bullying my cousins esp the SKINNY ONE. hee. she's really thin. perhaps one third of me. LOL. maybe i'm jus too big. =) I bought a bag, pair of shoes last wk, EAR PHONES frm audio tech =) LOVE IT! since i've seen it on mags.

I love taking the lift with the grey cat again. =) i LOVE seeing SHANNON. my preeeetiest cousin. not u chan XY. =p Such a pity i couldn't attend her b'dae party at king albert park MACS! =(
work again . MEOW.

i've seen desmond koh at the post office at paya lebar mrt. =)
n i've just seen MI LU BING with a bunch of frens at valley point. =) =) =)
dun really listen to them but it's kinda exciting seeing media artistes.
If i could actually see HYB? Haiz...Dear ISSY, pls do bring my stuff of anson hu. sobs. when is he noticing this small dot?

Longest post in perhaps MONTHS>>? so looking forward to movie watching day with BETH!!! popcorn... crunch crunch, de stress. haiz

2009-01-25T19:27:00.002+08:00

i wan a MOTO HIPTOP!!!

but would much prefer a sidekick, with more varieties.

ming zhen ku ah

hv to keep reminding: i will nv quit

AJA AJA fighting!

me non stop watching korean shows yo

night

2009-01-22T06:21:00.001+08:00

NITES AGAIN. but this time, i got DIARRHOEA, n went to see the dr at AnE. interesting.
n thankfully, today is the least busy in the ward, if not, i'll really faint... got 2 days of MC, hopefully the sis will grant it to me.
I'm so tired...

2009-01-07T20:04:00.002+08:00

the cloth at our gate has gone missing. tgt with the TODAY newspaper. y? no idea.

this society is just sick. emphasized after working.

happy new yr? not at all. wad happen on new yr itself, not a happy start rite.
irony.

i hate ....

first nite!!!

2008-12-16T09:17:00.002+08:00

nites again!

on the way back, shared a lift with a cat. i pressed the lift button for it. lighten up my day!

saw a rare bird too, with partial blue feathers, perching on a side rail. fascinating!

Sister let us go hm earlier too since it has past 8!

gotta slp now.

2008-12-15T15:14:00.000+08:00

once again, anson hu has vanished... sigh

resus!

2008-12-15T00:16:00.002+08:00

i did a mini resus today!!! so exciting. N it really helps when u hv friends to help u out, esp. SISTER!!! i din hv to do much today. =) hope he survives after op. so glad i din hv to do cpr.

saw a black cat at A&E. a rat while walking hm. 2 more rats in the past few days. another grey cat near the lift. i wish i could be like them.

i feel competent.
how come i dun slim down huh?

ah, i noe... all that junk n buffet i ate. oops.

all these mozzies attacking me.

MOUSY

2008-12-02T11:43:00.004+08:00

i haven't seen a rat now for like ages, meaning 2-3 wks... where has all the rats gone to? humph

the clicker at Sakae sushi! it looks so cute. Had to take a pic of it, as proof of going to sakae for lunch on sat.

Then i went to the lib, n saw this in the Dog Fancy mag. I wan one too... the mouse i'm using now gets cranky occasionally...

i'm on self declared HOL! but its ending after tml. back to work again... awww

Ate jap buffet again yesterday with cuz. felt like a python after eating a tiger. or smth like tt. was still full when going to slp! but it was really gd. smth like sakae, only they hv CHICKEN! i love chicken.

we ate bout 31 dishes includin the sushi. =) she says she'll not eat a chawanmushi for a wk. who eats chawanmushi once a wk anyway? haha. yummy!!!

cake!

2008-11-29T10:51:00.002+08:00

My frens at work with me during nite shift bought THIS for ME!!!! =) They wanted to surprise me while i was changing. LOL. kinda expected it when i saw the lights outside went dark. So sweet of THem!!!

Here's wad i did on 27/11/08:
0000-0900: working
0930-1742: sleeping
1742-1930: eating dinner, preparing for work again
2000-2030: ate b'dae cake
2030-0900 (28/11): work again

And finally, i get the weekend off!!! will be eating sakae ltr. Yummy! =)

I hope Anson Hu has a dvd coming out on his concert!

Anson Hu Concert!

2008-11-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

Tml h.y.b. will be having a concert in TAIWAN!!! sobs...

My patient was found, and returned back to the ward.

He better nt be there when i return to work on monday. Haiz

night

2008-11-14T05:17:00.003+08:00

This time round my nite shift totally ruined...
first nite, pt fell. tonight, pt absconded...
there r many crazy ppl in this world.
one trying to commit suicide by being eaten tigers, making life miserable for these tigers.
ppl talking to themselves in the ward.
This place is getting scarier.
things hv to crop up when u feel settled.
Crappy day.

joy

2008-11-05T19:13:00.002+08:00

the joy of just listening to music

the joy of readin a bk

the joy of watching serials online

the joy of eating

the joy of being with family

the joy of not working... for a day...

=)

eagle eye...

2008-10-08T20:26:00.002+08:00

it's a good movie! uh-uh. =) =) =)

Shia is such a gd actor as well, esp. when he cried. The acting cast are so good too!!! lol, everything is gd except of that damn computer. The story is quite like Wall e actually, even "e-li-sa-bai" (beth) agrees. haha. So nice of her to watch with me the movie after her morn shift n is my off. Haiz, no more off til nxt wk.
oh, i so love the show! with all those car accidents, including the plane flying inside the tunnel for cars! all those collisions. O.0

Love the endin as well. sweet happy endin as usual, when Shia din't die, and when they both fall for each other. Awww.

I'd wish to see u once more again though u most prob forgot bout me.

Arggg. i DO NOT like B'DAES. Wad do i BUY??? why do i hv to rem most ppl's b'dae? Now i hv no reason not to get a PRESSIE. sighs.

The man who can't be moved...

2008-10-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

shagged... 10 days of working in a row. 2 days of changing shift. 1 was changed at 0550 in the morn, woken up by a phone call.
pathetic.

how much can one bottled up inside?

life still goes on.
brightens up with songs *the man who can't be moved* Hereby declared it one of my all-time fav songs that cheers me up. meaningful lyrics.

dun hv frens, but yet hv them. I hv family. God.

success n failure.

He loves me so. this i noe. =)

confused.

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Despite the sudden change of shifts, or tough times in work, He has really helped me survived through this wk. escaping frm worser times. providing me with help throughout busy times.

This is who He truly is.

h.y.b.

2008-09-23T19:00:00.003+08:00

FINALLY!!!

HE finally appears for a whole hr, including the adverts, on yu le bai fen bai~~~

N he sang the songs really well. =D He oso performed 3 magic tricks. *wow* My first time seeing his magic tricks. hehe.

2008-09-18T21:51:00.002+08:00

i'm so tired...

went shopping AGAIN!!! with cuz. need to stop going out with her, cos everytime that happens, smth goes into my cupboard again.

i nv knew that blisters can occur within 5mins of friction within shoes n toes. quickest ever. now, i can't decide whether squeezing, poking it or leaving it is better.

i'm considering whether to trade in my new phone. i jus sent 6 sms to the same person, cos the phone hanged, n i kept pressing it, due to not knowing whether it was sent anot. jus checked it on singtel, for trades: its $250. wow... can i trade in? hm. i would rather not hv wifi then the screen. i shld cherish normal phones now.

some ppl hv this **** up .tude that really pisses me off. i DUN OWE U ANYTHING. period.

2008-09-17T22:27:00.002+08:00

the peachy sofa... n starring my dog. =)

Shall see the penguin chicks on central now. so cuteeee

2008-09-16T22:21:00.001+08:00

i needed to add this:

my sis went to swim today. then jog ltr . N now, her colour of her face is bout the same as the SOFA!!!

shall post pic of the sofa tml, since my sis def wouldn't let me take her sitting on the peachy sofa.
haha

16 SEPT!

2008-09-16T21:27:00.002+08:00

Dragged all the way to work today. After resting for more than 2 days, no motivation at all. The songs that one choose has to be wise. It's so tiring to listen to an upbeat song when u're so not feeling upbeat.

Anyway, i think i missed WORK!!! can u believe that? i wasn't that blur today, n didn't commit much mistakes xcept for "not bringing pts to DL". Can the company jus strike this DL thing? it's not like the pt can go hm any earlier than he's supposed to be, though the bed can be emptied earlier. Haiz. My SISTER is really nice compared to others elsewhere. though, they are still alike at certain aspects.

Someone added me in FB. =) i'm so happy. haha. on 2nd thot, hmm... day, or rather nite dreaming instead.
Much as happen since 3-4 yrs ago. N u still LOOK DE SAME!
Most of us prob look the same as few yrs back, jus more polished than others.

I enjpy shopping with my CUZ!!! =) though at certain times, she can really be ... erm... can't describe, or typed out. haha. MISSED shopping already, which was jus yesterday. it's def a form of exercise, aching over my arms now.

2008-09-14T21:49:00.002+08:00

i've so many thoughts, but when i'm on this posting page, i dunno wad to write.

Wall-eeee, is more like a love story. it gets so touching that i cried. It oso made me wonder wad it's like if u're living all alone in this world. n that even if u think that u're all alone, some creatures will still be hanging around. jus like that roach, and its "never can die" attitude. very admirable indeed... the sweetness n innocence of wall-eee too. though there aren't as much laughter as kungfu panda, it's gd too. It oso shows how lazy ppl can get if there're robots like those in the movie. scary...

Music talented guys are so gd. =)

Songs frm jonas bro n derrick hoh are really gd too. i could actually understand wad derrick is singing, cos most of the times, i dun listen, or more like i couldn't figure out wad the lyrics are. But i'm able to hear his.

I so do not wana go back to work after bout 3 days rest. Aw.... I can't be lazy.

i liked Pastor steve who preached yesterday. I understand more now. He spoke such gd english.

I bought a new phone. LG ks20. hope it'll last longer. the girl said there wasn't anymore, n i thought: i can hv more time to decide on wad phone i wan then. N, she came out with the phone. God do provides. even when i didn't pray.

I've got so much i wana share n talk bout, but i noe u ppl dun wan be bothered by me. oh well...

I realised that one's personality wouldn't change much from young. It's already formed when u're in pri sch, n as u grow older, it oni gets refined n reinforced. realised that without having to meet my pri sch frens. wonder how it'll be like when we do meet.
Gatherings - love n hate

yup, i'm defintely a happier person on one to one.

nite shift again =)

2008-09-12T03:58:00.004+08:00

i'm on NITE again!!!

i kinda like it too! *wide grin* nt having to bring pt for shower, or deal with consultants n other dr. or senior nurses. =)

Getting weekends off is a PLUS too. n other hush hush stuff i can do in the nite.

Y do elderly go to the toilet so often at NITe? haiz.

3 more hrs to go. GREAT!

i'm getting so high frm eating choc waffle, donut N caffeine. All those calories..

2008-09-07T22:32:00.002+08:00

Work has been better after that dreadful day...

every experience counts.

I still feel lonely even when surrounded by friends. which makes me awkward still.
I guess, deep down, i still like doing things myself, being enclosed, reading books n watchin stuff online, havin space to myself.

Some ppl are jus expecting too much. Some are jus so strange. Some are so worked up for nth. N some, i jus find it hard to talk to.

some words are jus so hard to say...

1st sept

2008-09-01T20:42:00.002+08:00

Definitely a BAD DAY TODAY...

Jus took over frm the night shift n my pt HAD TO FALL DOWN. at 7 AM!!! wad else can i say? haiz... this is my first. i wonder do the seniors hv any pts who fall under their care? cos afterall, they're human too. thankfully (to God), pt had been hving falls at home, n the family oso know she's prone to it, so they dun blame me. Now i wish all the chairs hv a belt to it. STRAP all of them up...

n finally can raise "e-hor", it doesn't wana log me in. gotta get the password all over again.

and... there was another FALL!!! in the afternoon, not the same pt.

wad on earth happen today huh?

yesterday during roll call, "Sister" jus said august had 4 . cannot hv such high fall rates. today... 2, and it's oni the start of SEPT.

the assistant director of nursing came today. luckily, she didn't speak to me.
The house officer today is oso poor thing. this mth we hv 3 HOs. today, 2 went off call, including another MO. so the HO is so busy today, with bout 5 admissions??? and... he's on call today. so means... he can oni go hm tml!!! It's not a really gd day for many ppl. Another HO didn't hv a gd day either, n he kinda vented it out on me. but i could totally understand how crappy he felt when the day jus go really bad...

how is it like to work in a zoo? at least no falls rite?

thursday with LA

2008-08-28T20:54:00.002+08:00

I had a fun time walking around with oni one slipper in Far East! it's definitely not an everyday experience, and i've an excuse to buy SANDALS! =) but it was a quick thing. There's smth wrong with POSB today too! haiz

Am veri full now after being filled with jap food n mars bar.

friend's b'dae tml... HAPPY B'DAE BIZI!!!!!!!

hm...met Ms Daisy Oh (my pri sch teacher) today too at the bus stop tgt with La and had a chat. =)

i'm still worried bout POSB.

2008-08-17T20:12:00.002+08:00

I enjoyed the car ride hm frm east coast, listening to Backstreet boys 2nd album n SINGING TO IT aloud for my fam to hear!

wad a waste, not wearing my new cheap sunglasses...

Wad a lot of ppl in zouk. it's like travelling in a train at 8-9 in the morn. PACKED! bought a dress n ring. HEE. stil shopping.

Singapore VS china.

Start work again tml. see all my fave ppl. =)

my dog

2008-08-16T09:57:00.002+08:00

Cherri is great!!! though she's irritating at sometimes esp. when she barks, like rite now... or when she scratches u when u step into the house.

so... yesterday, i though i lost the rubber of one earphone, which always irritates me, cos it drops out easily. N i was thinking, i've definitely lost it outside cos i couldn't find it anywhere in my bag.

Then, there was my dog chewing smth so happily... and IT WAS THE RUBBER!!! haha. so i washed it clean n USE IT. =) dun care if there's bite marks there or her saliva. dun share earpiece with me. haha

back at home rite now after post nite. =D going out for dinner with my frens at work. I dun really call them colleagues cos it's like a big family, though some may not like each other. Anyway, what
's new??? Hv to find some place that enables me to sit n read books quietly, waiting for time to pass in orchard. I so do love reading! N... i forgot to bring my lib card yesterday, of all things to forget, THAT... but i have such gd frens that doesn't mind going to lib so that i can borrow books. the joy of having frens! =)

gotta go to orchard so early in the morn for physio. Haven been there for a looong time.

last nite!

2008-08-15T04:19:00.003+08:00

i've finally reached my fourth nite here! can finally slp regularly.

got one new admission today, but its settled now, n i'm watching L change the world. =)

cell, physiotherapy, family gathering, dinner with colleagues, herbal hair shop. my wkend is packed.

3 more hrs for home.

my first nite shift!

2008-08-14T00:26:00.002+08:00

my nite shift started out as busy... subsequently, it gets better n better. today, i dun hv to do BLDS!!! yippee. free frm this hassle today.
NO admission for today plz.

tml last nite. hmm.

watching videos currently, searching for smth nice to watch. =)

2008-08-11T00:10:00.002+08:00

Being tagged...

>So, what’s your primary food group?
RICE!

> Who would you like to have lunch with tomorrow?
Eh... No one, cos i'll most likely be eating in front of my comp, trying my best to watch online videos. =)

> What kind of food do your best friends like?
No idea. We've diff tastes. but i try to convert them.

> Would you rather be a zombie or a vampire?
A vamp, cos i'm already suckin ppl's bld. N i figure, at a certain point, a zombie would get tired from the jumping around n hand sticking straight out. *based on old chinese movies*

> Erhuh. And so would you rather be Master Chief or Serious Sam?
who r they? wad's the link with that n vamp or zombie?

> Favourite Pizza Topping?
NONE!!!

> Last one. Would you rather be The Joker or The Riddler.
Not a fan of batman.

> Music. What does it do to you?
Makes me happy! makes me wanna sing.

> Favourite Genre?
R n B, soul, pop/rock. all kinds. :)

> Favourite bands from that Genre?
ANSON HU!!! duh... haha. though he's not a band. but he sang in a band b4. =D
n do u really wanna noe my fav bands? or more like singers? PLENTY!

> What instrument do you play? Or would like to.
the guitar, erhu, guzheng.
I'd really like to play the piano n maybe the drum ( but not so much now cos there's no melody to it)

> Got anyone on your mind? Come now, you know what I’m talking about. Because every quiz needs some HEART right! (get the pun. Ha. Haha.)
no idea wad this qn is bout.

> Why are you be thinking about them?
WAD???

> Gonna do anything about it?
ok... this is not progressing at all.

> So what’s your top 4 reasons why you like someone then (Top 3 is so overrated).

oh... i get it now. haha...
hmm, fun personality, who love God, cares bout me, n doesn't mind the long process of getting to noe me.

> i herd you liek mudkips
wad's that?

> I’m in ur fridge, eatin ur foodz
get out of there then.

> Biting pear of salamanca
further qn marks...

> What did you want to be when you were a kid?
definitely a teacher. but it progresses to being a police officer, vet, lawyer, housewife, singer, n finally a nurse. But that has also changed to ZOO KEEPER!!!

> What do you want to be now? As in now, what do you want to do when you grow up.
ok, my ans above has answered this qn. =)

> If you changed your mind… why?
Cos... wad do u think? Being a nurse is not as wad i thought it was. Ppl will nv be satisfied, even if we're caring for ur fam mem with our best. We're not for u to be bullied. Why dun YOU look after them instead if u're that competent. i've pent up anger.

> Whatcha doing tomorrow at 3 o clock?
Maybe still hook onto the comp. or maybe napping to prepare for my nite shift tml! so exciting!

> Psyched about anything at the moment?
Not rly, cos i'm feeling sleepy while trying to complete this tag.

> Nearest thing to you that’s plain black.
SpeakerS

> What’s on your Desktop now?
As in the background? I duno wad's its call, jus blue patterns. very dull, cos i'm using the home comp. My own comp has ratoutille wallpaper. hee =D can't be bothered to change, n the rat is really CUTE! maybe i shall change it to kungfu panda.

> Can you multitask? What are you doing besides this quiz?
I try to. listening to mp3. it's boring if there's no music besides the sound of my fingers typing the keyboard.

> What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleeping?
maybe a day. can't rem. y bother?

> What’s your catch phrase of the moment?
hu yan bin? yang jia jiang *yang clan*?
dunno. i've been mentioning them to my frens at work. haha. u can include: hv u eaten ur lunch or dinner. Veri impt qn.

> Do you like long hair or short hair!
Long! i like michelle chia hair! i try to keep my hair as long as possible and experiment diff styles.

> Give someone a shout out!
NAH... my mum n sis are sleeping. =D

Now tag other people so they can do this quiz instead of the other one floating around (cos this one’s just awesome, ya know?)

nah. y bother rite... who else comes to this blog except me? haha
-ANSON HU!!! if he can reads english

whoever likes to be tagged can do this then.

now... back to my proper entry:

2 patients fell today. Unlucky day though there wasn't much to do. sth else happen which i can't tell.

My nite shift tml, wonder if i'll enjoy.
freedom to eat out of the staff room. Cool... =) so sua gu, though i did tt b4 during prev posting.
3 days off after the shift ends, which lasts for 4 days.
Don't hv to worry pt showered already or whether they had their meals. Lesser family members disturbing and criticising u.

rite. slp now.

2008-08-08T22:39:00.003+08:00

i forgot to add that the i disliked Pan's daughter as well. might as well include the whole of Pan family. haha.

ok... now i'm watching the nxt ep already...

gosh.

eddie peng is so cute. n he died in the show. =x

ok... gotta ignore me.

8 8 8

2008-08-08T22:15:00.003+08:00

what a long day...

waking up at 542
finished work at 245
reached vivo at 4
watched The Mummy at 655
took the bus 855 at 925
reached hm at 950

wad's the deal with nos. ?

had an interesting day today

i think i saw a dr. n i think he was with a gf. oops... =D i oso think i was staring at him, while figuring whether that is him. humphh

i sat with someone watching the movie alone. i wonder wad is goin on in his mind. esp. when i'm laughing aloud n he doesn't. gosh, the cow in the movie is really cute! as well as the yeti. and i liked the cast as well.

i miss seeing him on taiwan shows.

tml is national day. am i a singaporean?
so tired. how long does it take for a sprain to completely heal?

I do enjoy watching THE YANG CLAN online.
Pan Prime Minister is really baaaaad... everytime he appears, i'd really like to bash him.
that's wad actors are supposed to do.

in order to sleep b4 11 for my morn shift tml, i shall do the tag quiz tml.
it's my first time... Exxxxiciting. =)

back to my show. 10 more mins to be done with.

2008-08-02T19:21:00.001+08:00

Here's the highlight of the week: spraining of ankle on Nurse's day...

and having to work with a sprained ankle is an experience.

2008-07-19T22:08:00.003+08:00

i didn't really wana blog re: h.y.b. today until i found this... honestly...

Totally made me change my mind... Haiz... =D

He looks so cute with the SPECS!
I wan a specs like tat too!

He's on yu le bai fen bai too!!!

I do not noe wad to say when ppl ask me how i am. I'm glad the checklist has been completed. I'm glad i hv some frens in hosp whom i can talk to n hv fun with. I dislike ppl commenting so much, and much n much n NOT STOPPING. frigging irritating. I'm glad my preceptor is not like tt. may hv to strangle her?

I wana shop n go out but am feeling tired. So worn out today jus sponging 4 patients.

The MV of the song is avail in youtube, but no one whom is my fren wans to see. SOBS!!! tsk tsk

2008-07-12T22:07:00.002+08:00

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/EcDteErTjp0/

I'm blushing, gushing, smiling, grinning, after watching h.y.b. on the video!!!!!

Oh gosh.... hahaha... oh well... It's good for the heart n mind. =) He sings on the spot without music, and MI SI everyone.

I wonder wad happens if i see him face to face. Faint on the spot?

I want a ............... now!!!

I look like a 13 yr old? Does that put ppl off? hmmm...

Am i really disrespectful? Sometimes i feel that is my defense mech if u start being disrespectful to me, even though i'm younger.

Watching these videos make me laugh. Put away those that make me unhappy. Wad's wrong with some ppl? Demanding respect when i dun feel the respect frm them? * multiple multiple dots*

2008-07-03T21:29:00.003+08:00

TODAY is the day that h.y.b. news is on yu le bai fen bai, n i got to watch it. In singapore!

Today is the day feeling tired n satisfied after shopping the whole day with my cousin, though feeling guilty for skipping the staff meeting. who in their rite mind will go back on their one and oni off day in a week? I can proudly now say that i've exercised. walking long distances frm Far East to Cathay cine, n in the centres itself. wonder how many km? haha.

tomorrow is the day of my mother's and h.y.b. birthday. and its oso his album coming out in taiwan. independence day too rite? Wad an impt day. FRIDAY!!!

today is the 3rd day of me thinking how to fast.

i wanna watch movies again...

DO visit http://pearlavish.livejournal.com !!!

more reading on h.y.b tw news...

he's going back to china soon. Awww...

yep...

2008-07-02T17:08:00.000+08:00

Yep!!!

he's definitely POPULARrrr.

AND there are definitely ppl out there that like him as much as i do, and even more.

i wonder wad it would be like if he comes.

would it be like how it is in TW?

2008-07-01T19:52:00.001+08:00

i feel like a really big bad ass rite now...

dun wanna care, dun wanna noe, dun wanna help, dun wanna get involve.

2008-06-27T20:15:00.002+08:00

ok... I do hv to blog!!! bout the usual stuff that most peeps are not into... like :

080624康熙来了C（你最期待的神密嘉宾胡彦斌）

I'VE WATCHED IT!

muahaha... huge evil-like laughter. it's funny! esp with xiao S. =)

?

2008-06-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

Do u really wan me to blog?

pearlavish

2008-06-18T21:34:00.002+08:00

http://pearlavish.livejournal.com/

do visit this website! =) Apparels that are consider cheaper than other online shops.

There are more updates on H.Y.B again!!!! maybe i shld create a new brand: H.Y.B. Haha... i wish i was in NYP earlier, cos he went there once to sing. Haiz.

i bought smth again... pay is coming again. think that's wad most of us jus started working are looking forward to. =)

i've been eating too much today... uh-oh...

uh-oh

2008-06-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

oh oh... i already hv all the songs in the "new cd"...

音樂斌潮

2008-06-12T19:39:00.002+08:00

He's gonna hv a new album in JULY!!! wahaha...

I wonder if there's an Anson Hu fan club in SG???

I think i can oni last for 12 hrs after i wake up.

guess

wad...

i shall sleep soon...

n i really wana go TW rite now...

oh GOSH!!! =D

2008-06-10T20:06:00.005+08:00

I feel relieved after it has been done. i worry too much. =) shall watch videos in peace now... =D

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/rigck197374/12639650

i've just discovered another of his fan BLOG!!! veri GOOD! so if i need any updates of anson, i can jus go there. i wish i could go to TW! I hope he goes to yu le bai fen bai, better yet, stays for the whole show, so i can watch it in S'PORE!!! he was on kangxi recently. I shall go n search for it...

TATA...

2008-06-08T20:16:00.002+08:00

I do feel wu liao for going to ECP, staring at the sea, my bk n paper, then go home. I can't see there, and relax, doing nth. And so, i return hm for dinner. YUMMY mexican wings. I'll prob not go there anymore. Shall jus stay near hm during off days.

Anson hu has a new song with Elva Hsiao! so TALENTED... *gosh* =) But i still like xin nian better.

My dreams? goals? ??? huh???

failures

2008-06-05T11:37:00.002+08:00

I did smth extremely stupid on tues. Its so stupid that after 2 days, i still wana knock my head against the wall, and continue to hv internal as well as external conversations with myself. I told the truth, and screwed myself. I could hv jus told a white lie, so that the relatives won't hv anything against my company. I wonder if they'll hv disclipinary actions against me, for screwing up, but i'm jus paranoid. I hope they can be discharged ASAP, so i won't hv to face them.

Today, i read that, we hv to learn frm our failures, and i admit that, it is the fastest and very effectiveway to learn smth. I jus wish that the ppl around won't be harsh on the mistakes made. And tt the mistakes won't hv adverse effects on others.

I jus like to put all these away, far n away frm me. I would nv say the same thing i did again. I hv lied so many times frm young, i dun understand y i was so compelled to say the truth at that moment.

sunday!

2008-06-01T19:02:00.002+08:00

finally... my OFF DAY!!!

went to Sakura restaurant for a buffet lunch at orchard, followed by SHOPPING!!! mostly for my sis, but i still enjoy the food and retail therapy. It's great that i finally get to go out instead of jus going home after working. =) didn't get to go to a CD shop though.

I watch "honey and clover" on YOUTUBE! it's the pic on top. It's a really funny show, n i finally hv a new drama that i can enjoy watching! Chu ben (lego Li) looks like a miniature joe cheng. the cast are great too! =)

Enough said... i've to eat dinner at my cuz's hse now...

2008-05-31T22:31:00.003+08:00

i wish i still can be excused from my mistakes by my age. I wish i can always be the youngest, so ppl would be easier on me. i wish i could be more efficient in things that i do. I wish ppl could teach, not teach combine with scolding.i wish they can tell me wad to do, n not expect me to noe smth that no one has ever tell me before. how am i to noe smth when i dun even noe it exists? the feeling of non existence and of no use.

I duno whether this is smth that He wants me to do. where shld i head to? can i work in a farm? or somewhere with little civilisation but the ppl there kind? gosh...

i wish my talents could be more obvious. so i would noe wad to do.

alrite... gotta go slp. 4 days of waking up at 540 has changed my biological clock. I'm going to wake up at 10!

Wad . do. i . do. ... ... ...

2008-05-30T20:33:00.002+08:00

i've finally dream of..... H.Y.B. haha. *i noe u out there most prob wana roll eyes* I was wondering how long it would take me to dream of him la. And in this dream, he's the same height as me. HORROR! haha, cos that would meant he has SHRUNK. anyway, i believe he's tall, 1.8m. =)

Hv been feeling out of this world. Working everyday for the past 7 days. I suck at this job, unable to decide wad to do.Time mgt is definitely impt. I finally get to go church tml after morning. then it'll be my OFF DAY on SUNDAY! plans hv already be thought of. I wana go shopping!

Clay aiken has a new album!!!

CAN i dun work? or study? haiz...

When can i get to see him?

xin nian video!!!

2008-05-27T11:24:00.002+08:00

2008-05-24T11:12:00.001+08:00

half of a Grad class of NR0528!!!

2008-05-22T16:30:00.003+08:00

I've finally graduate!!! I was so glad n relieved that i didn't fall on stage because of the shoes. haha. It's so tiring to go thru the grad ceremony. I'll most likely nv get to go up stage again. I hope the nxt 3 yrs of my working life can go pass quickly like the last 3 yrs.

can u spot : stitch, elmo, mushroom, piglet, eeyore ? It all belongs to my SIS! and there are other soft toys that can't be seen clearly. AND, it all goes to bed with her, where she shares her bed with my mum. Y would someone wana squeeze with so many other small creatures? They occupy 1/4 of the bed. this pic was taken when i had to move all the stuff frm the bed, so that the aircon man can come n repair. Do u hv any idea how troublesome it is to move so many small creatures? There are like 10 of these toys...

2008-05-21T16:52:00.002+08:00

I'm graduating TML from NYP!!! =) but hv to wake up early, so a little rgret wanting to go for the grad. My main highlight of tml is hoping to eat mac breakfast. Lame rite? =) i love food! Anyway, most probably going hm after lunch in sch. I miss the JAP food. Oh... *salivating* =D

Work is so tiring... my legs hurt so much. and the weather is so HOT. It's terrible going to work in the afternoon. And i hv slight flu, making me sweat like buckets! i was doing a procedure, where ppl can see the beads of sweat jus POPPING out. it's just SO TERRIBLE outside. Just wana stay at hm and stay out of the sun. ITE students were in our ward. Hee, nice to see them again after their posting with them prev. now, i can boss them around. Time flies. Some of them can recognize me. =)

I love Ribena! esp when it's so sweet.

Anson has BLOGGED!!! 2 posts this month, because of the Sichuan earthquake.

It's strange when ppl asks whether u hv a bf anot, yet when u tell the truth and say no, NO one believes it. My bf is Anson alrite... =D

I like the drs working in the ward now! =) one of them were telling me there are going to be many discharges tml. I SAY:" haha, I'M NOT WORKING TML... " I'm happy! obviously...

I greeted GOOD MORNING to all my pts today! SO fun!!! I love all my pts. cos most of them can ambulate! but they're really nice too.

frustrated

2008-05-15T20:24:00.003+08:00

I'm just so frustrated... UGH...
I can't seem to unbottle my feelings.
I wasn't really angry, jus tt i dun like ppl to be VERY late. Slightly late is alrite. Ya... so i was just a lil irritated, and i wanted to be able to type my true feelings cos i didn't feel gd saying it out.
It's like, such a trouble to hv to explain things rite frm the start, n make ppl see things frm MY perspective. Hence... i prefer ppl to see that things are going alrite for me.

Haiz. Mums can be very dramatic. *sigh* Sometimes, i can't really stand it, but afterall, i hv to honour her. And its mother's day wk. We didn't celebrate it. I dun see the point in that anyway, no offence, but u're supposed to treat ur family with love everyday, not jus one special occasion. Everyday seems the same.

I'm not very sure wad i'm doing is rite anymore. I dun like pleasing ppl. I prefer to do things that i enjoy. If i hv to please my boss when i try out as a zookeeper, i think i may jus quit, and sweep the floor or smth. Why do ppl hv to please certain ppl, after all, we're all humans. Gosh, it can be so irritating sometimes...

UGH

Curfew

2008-05-11T10:52:00.002+08:00

I have forgotten to mention that i have a.... CURFEW! muahaha... its 1130pm by the way. I've always thought that i won't hv a curfew, but i'm so wrong.

Is 20 consider young? What if i want to get married by 23 ? Some may ask y be married at sucha young age, but i've always thought that 23 is the ideal age for marriage. =)

I've lost my *biscuit looking giraffe* and used my sis biscuit looking dog, cos she doesn't use it. Might as well put to good use by me. Poor giraffe still somewhere on the streets, facing the dirty, ugly looking floors, or hv been swept away.

Working on a sunday isn't as bad as ppl think. Cos i usually hv nth to do on a sunday, might as well work and earn money. And there're lesser patients too. BONUS! but it oso meant that more families will come and visit, demanding stuffs.

I hv pictures! but my hp batt is running low, so shallleave it to tml.
WATCH the YOUNG WARRIORS on Ch 8, 1030pm, every sunday! Anson sang the opening song! =D And the actors in the show are good!

Tiong bahru

2008-05-10T16:03:00.002+08:00

tiong bahru plaza has changed! well, jus a lil. =)
Jus went shopping there. bought my FAVE amos cookies! *yum* went to the cd shop annnnnnd bought: anson hu's MV quan ji lv. Didn't noe there was such a thing coming out for him and when i SAW IT, *heart was beating faster* and thinking where did it came frm. Jus had to buy it. And also Utada's new album. Her singing is really good, though i dun understand jap.
I went to NYP to collect my grad attire. Was having 2nd thoughts re: going for grad ceremony, waste of time, money and efforts... Didn't noe wad to do after that, so in the end, i'm at hm now, going online, using a lagging comp, reading MONK (a book about solving crimes. Its a series) waiting for the sites to load completely.
Sweet talk's mocha isn't really nice. Shall jus stick to my grape milk tea. Nyp's mac is gd! Today's weather is really nice to just stay at hm, and stoned. Who created this word by the way?
I'm not someone who has a lot of thinking done. I much prefer to be thought of as a girl who is simple rather than superficial, though at times i do think that i am.
No more late nites outside... I'm jus 19 plus...
rite....
someone's life could be in my 19 yr old hands. wad huge responsibility...
that's it...
Is a colourful entry better or one that stays the same?

can't believe

2008-05-07T20:41:00.002+08:00

U can't imagine wad ridiculous things i'm thinking of, nor what i'm capable of doing... i can't believe it myself... =) This doesn't mean anything.

oh yup! i still wana see H.Y.B live in ACTION! Great olympic song he came up with. SEE, or rather, HEAR, so talented. tsk tsk. =D

Have been eating fast food these days. Hospital food are really boring. I'm definitely putting on wt cos i'm eating lunch everyday. There's smth wrong with my dog today, no idea what or why. and, NO, she doesn't hv PMS.

I really like watching V. Mars. and kristen bell is really pretty!

I wana eat chocolate waffles tml morn for breakfast!

I need more victims! And no, i'm not really afraid of taking blood, nor bld being taken frm me. If u're not afraid, come approach me, so i can PRACTISE!

Life has been rather good to me. I do think it is by God's grace that i'm where i am. esp my working area.

Has been experimenting with my hair lately. Still no clue as to wad to do with it.

Extremely random. talk to me. =) or leave me alone, if u'd prefer to ignore me.

I have this little sister that likes waking me up jus because i slept before she did yesterday nite, and had wad she studied for exam enter her brain so she's happy. Happily come and disturb me. Haiz... Do that to her tonite? tsk tsk.

I like being colourful and random!

God - Bed

2008-05-03T10:55:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, i kept thinking that God is like my bed, or rather when i think of God, i think of my bed. Its a very impt thing in my life and in others as well. One needs to spend sometime, sleeping on it. Even if u just slp for a few hrs, u hv the energy to go through the rest of the day. The bed gives one rest, comfort, warmth, n refuge. Like when its raining, some just like to hide in it and escape frm the rest of the world. Maybe it was because i was feeling sleepy, but i was still thinking. It is oso in my bed that i pray most of the time, and leaving my worries behind, to hv peace. =) My bed is the best place to be at hm, though oni at nite la, cos there's aircon. In the day, it'll be super hot.

I've got anson hu's full version of the song he wrote for the olympics 2008! =D It has his fans in it. Looking forward to the video! He's just so talented... =)

I need to love u all ppl jus like Jesus did!

REST DAY! =)

2008-04-30T10:22:00.002+08:00

I was supposed to sleep til 10 am this morning, but it turns out that my biological clock is better than my alarm clock, making me wide awake at 830 am. SO... i lay in bed, tossing and turning, trying hard to go back to slp but gave up at bout 850 am. cos for 2 days, i've been waking up at 540am.

I can't seem to watch the "they kiss again" video on youtube, which is bad cos its the LAST EPISODE! haiz... but i'm watching veronica mars season 3 on tudou, which kinda makes up for it. =) Nonetheless, y does it hv to be on the last ep? and it seems like its oni happening to me!

Meanwhile, i'll jus continue to watch V.M, waiting to go out at 2 plus. lazy morning...

NEW SKIN!!!

2008-04-23T21:55:00.004+08:00

i've change the blogskin because there was smth wrong with the prev one, and isn't this CUTE? haha. though i dun really hv a great love towards tintin, simpsons, spongebob etc. i've modified certain things like: adding the video below the playlist. because i'm super uber uber kiasu! And it'll be convenient if i wanna see the video AGAIN! annnnd... ppl can watch it, after i MAKE THEM DO SO, even if my prev post on that same video is gone. gd rite??? AND, i oso added the new beijing olympic song that he sang with other FANS (how come i dun get to be there?) but its oni 48 secs, cos it's a preview.

Off tml. shall enjoy it with DENISE! =) do all the things i haven and wanted to do. Double "J" movie: here i COME!

The practical test on IVC (intravenous cannulation) and IVM were tough. Learning 3 skills and being tested on them ON THE SAME DAY! manage to pass it. didn't even practise a few times.didn't like the testers except for one. cos she let me pass! and she's nice and cute. How can u let a student who just learnt the skills within few hrs, to practise on a LIVE ONE? zzz... Well, i'm quite excited to find my first victim. oops... =D

I shall continue watching my video on "they kiss again" *smiles*

THAT'S IT!!!

2008-04-20T22:40:00.005+08:00

YEAH!!!! H.Y.B fan has upload HIS LATEST NEWS! today! and i get to read it. I can't wait to see the mv for the beijing olympic song TOO!

NICE RITE??? HAIZ... Double click on the imeem thing so u can hear on the imeem website instead.
the website of his fan is : http://blog.yam.com/ansonhu
Veri useful! So that i can know his latest news if Anson doesn't update his own blog.

And i'm really liking this new ward, and hopes that there won't be anymore changes.

OH! OH OH OH!!! And i jus find out he updated his own blog too! but it is almost the same news la. Haha.
http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4913a23301008wi5.html

This is also another of his fans! =)http://www.wretch.cc/blog/deva&article_id=8775226

IVM & IVC TEST tml!! sleep first... =) I've got videos to WATCH! haiz.

my PRESENT ward

2008-04-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

I LOVE IT!!! ok, maybe i'm getting ahead of myself now. but i feel it's SO MUCH BETTER than the prev ward LOR... Haha, its such a huge difference. And i kinda feel weird now in the present wd, cos the staff will ask wad i did in wd 64, and i will also verbalize wad are the things they did over there. The burden is lighter now, and some of the staff are nice too. =)

SO, i really thank the Lord for this change at this stage, cos initially, there were times that i wonder where i'll go to. I thought: if i were to go back prev wd, then so be it. If i go to a new one, i wonder whether it'll be like the prev wd. If u wana noe the diff, ask me personally. i need to VENT!!! haha, in a gd way.

most of my rest day til may is on SATURDAY! I'll be able to attend church. Veri gd! i ESPECIALLY love the rest day on the week of Labour Day, then i'll be able to rest for 2 days! yeah!!!

Oh, by the way, i still haven forgot abt ANSON HU yet, but i've been spending considerably less time n effort on him. so... i'm not a psycho alrite... And i shall continue to ask those frens frm china re: H.Y.B. I've already hv one on my side! I do love making friends for particular reasons... Hee. 3 more days to go... off i go... =D

2008-04-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

I finally complete cross stitching for BETH!
I'm so NEVER gonna tell ppl i'll cross stitch for them as presents again. Once bitten, twice shy. Haha. nice rite??? Nxt cross stitchin most prob be after 3 yrs?

Gonna continue watching the videos... LEFT 2 PARTS!!!

2008-04-14T21:44:00.004+08:00

Orientation ends TODAY!!! was kinda boring... and SOOOO many ppl were sleeping while they played the videos of foundation and culture.I personally nod off a while too. HEE.

Hmm... nth much to update i guess. I went to bugis for 2 days to see this wallet that my fren has and i really wan it, so that i can use it durin work. So, i finally buy it today after much contemplation. =) Have been buying many stuff too for the past few days. I need to save now, both money and sms, BECAUSE, my SISTER has been using my phone to save up on her own. Haiz... i seldom am afraid of overusing my smses... SHE FRIGHTENS ME... hopes she see this. hee...

SO... i'll be starting work tml. shall update more! =) need to watch 4 more parts of a video before slping. There goes using my time leisurely... SOBS...

I'm going to the STC fun fair this SAT!!! half my day gone. I love CHURCH! I've been random this past few days. LIKE, REALLY RANDOM lor.

I still love anson HU! =) somethings seldom change.

2008-04-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

First day: orientation. The bad thing is the... ATTIRE. I didn't noe that we're supposed to wear smart casual, and i brought my uniform along tgt with shoes, making my bag so HEAVY! and i was wearing SLIPPERS, with tshirt n jeans. Seeing the CEO, wearing this. Very gd rite. haha
Anyway, how could they make us wear smart causal attire, like we're used to office work. And being 20, MOST of my clothes are JEANS and TSHIRTS. they're so troublesome.

Didn't listen to my mp3 the whole DAY! so equals: nv listen to anson hu VOICE! haha. I SHALL listen to it TML! when my bag is so much lighter.

I got my staff pass too. SO COOL!!! I'll need to get a "chop", for my name too. And i need to go bugis. AND... I dunno even noe when is my rest day THIS WEEK.

Now that i noe how the orientation is going to be like, i can plan my stuff properly, without hving backaches and headaches, and enjoy myself hopefully.

I'm going to another ward, which i haven really been there, but i talked to someone who has been there, and WILL be the oni person there with me. SO, i hv to be really GOOD frens with her. =) Not really sure whether is a gd thing anot, cos my prev ward is a very busy, and not so pleasant ward, but this time, i'm going to hv to learn new stuff and meet new ppl again. So...

About 10 hrs to go... NITE!

2008-04-06T17:22:00.002+08:00

VIDEO!!!! of h.y.b 's song. He's so cute in this video! =) I finally learnt to post videos by MYSELF. see, so smart... Haha. all for the sake of showing everyone his face, songs, and talent.

Last day before WORK STARTS...

H.Y.B and an egg, and my longest entry ever

2008-04-05T00:05:00.004+08:00

My obsession with him hasn't fade away yet, which is kinda scary, being obsess over a singer. The last time i did that was probably more than 5 yrs ago? bout 5566. But my 'obsession' now is bigger. And i really admire him, the way he sings, he plays instruments, create music, music that he has a passion of, and it makes me want to be more involved in MUSIC. His huge passion for it, and he's like talented. It makes me wan to learn more, as much as i can about instruments, that this could be what i'll be doing after nursing. It makes me think of what i can do after this part of my life. I realised there's SO MUCH MORE out there that i want to do.

I've done smth that i've nv done b4. which is... : saving half of his old songs from his previous albums, which is 5. i counted it jus now. My mp3 has 2 GB, and i've used it all UP. I wonder how much space is enough for me, cos my laptop is slowing down due to all the songs that i hv. Hearing his previous songs hv made me realised how much he has grown, mature, the way he sings now is slightly different from more than 5 yrs ago. and he has concerts, which is NOT in SINGAPORE. I think he only came once for an award thing, and i kept the magazine, not solely because he's in it. Listening to those songs also bring back memories of how i heard his music the first time, what i was doing when i bought the album, small little bits of memories, which is interesting. =)

And i still can't believe that he's 1.8m tall, and that i didn't notice it till THIS YR, 2008. How slow can i be? So, anyway, now, when i go out, i always notice tall guys, and imagine how tall he'll be WHEN i see him IN PERSON. WHEN, not IF. I shall make seeing him in person the no. 1 thing that i'll do after the bond! I don't care if i hv to fly to shanghai, and meet weird ppl, whom i can't communicate with because of their language and the pollution and all that stuff. Hmm... gotta wear a mask! and specs. i'm most probably getting ahead of myself right now. I maybe thinking too much, but i feel there's a reason why God give a brain rite? and imagination? But, i'll not go and worry about it, for that's wad He says we shan't do. Hopefully, after 3 yrs, he'll be more aware of fans in SINGAPORE?

=) / =( / =) Sometimes, thinking bout him jus makes me happy, but sad at the same time..

The next thing is, i felt like an EGG. It just came to my mind at cell. It's like i'm protecting myself, or creating a barrier around me. I had smth to share, but i didn't wan to talk about it. I felt my body just going haywire just thinking about sharing. But i dun mind sharing if it's a one person thing. Like we're just chit chatting. It's a little different from having a presentation in front of everybody, or performing when there's audience. I like people asking me qns, so i noe what to reply, that they really cared about me. I'm like the yolk, surrounded by the white and shell. =) weird comparison? wileen and the egg. I had the urge to cry during cell. It came 3 times. I think i really need to cry out. ???

Sometimes, i find myself wondering, why did i REALLY choose nursing? Is it because i want to help people so much? That i can help them feel better? Was it to prove smth? Was it me TRYING to be different because i hv to be unique? Or is it wanting to escape from the studying of many subjects for a couple more yrs like secondary sch?

Starting the career of being a nurse on MONDAY, 7 april... Certain sense of excitement, but a much higher sense of fear, worry, which has already been prayed for. I need to pray more. Looking forward to wearing the uniform, to serving ppl (whom i need to stop being biased of). I still haven study sch materials, which is kinda BAD. Need to start working on that(which i've already been telling myself since this monday, and occasionally during the hols).

I really like the NTU CELL! You people are a GREAT bunch to hang out with, though i usually can't stay late, which sometimes i like or don't. But i still feel that i'm unable to "open up" in a way. Just this invisble strong barrier, that i believe He will break it sometime soon, and after a period of being tgt... Hope u all will see this, if u're wondering how come i'm quiet, and distancing myself.

This must be the longest post that i've ever typed. So for those who actually read, i suggest u read the entry separately for several days. Because, when i read ppl's blog that has long entries too, i tend to skip much of it, just skimming through. Oops! And i've been listening to H.Y.B cd throughout this period of time. and if u haven yet guessed wad's H.Y.B... it stands for hu yan bin, 胡彥斌. or A.H.Y.B: anson hu yan bin. He has the same b'dae as my mum, which helps me rem it better. I'm like, psychotic or smth. A few of my friends probably can't stand me anymore, with me sending weblinks of his videos.

I think i really, really like guys who are really talented, good with music and REALLY has the PASSION for it! I think many girls like them too... oops.

Time do fly at times... i need sleep...

ANSON HU

2008-03-30T21:39:00.001+08:00

I'M CURRENTLY STILL VERY VERY CRAZY ABOUT HIM AT THE MOMENT! =)
*HUGE GRIN*

2008-03-29T21:17:00.002+08:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=yhUCHz9Atys&feature=related

The very first song that i heard frm ANson!

bird park

2008-03-29T11:04:00.003+08:00

The Jurong birdpark is really easy to go to by public transport. Quite a no. of tourists there. I was glad that it was so HOT, though it drizzled a little at 4pm, just when the birds of prey show was going to start. That includes birds like eagles, owls n vultures, seen rarely in singapore. =) Took some pics, but they ain't clear, just for my own references in my hp.

I enjoyed seeing the PENGUINS! and it has aircondition, so we rested there for 1 hr, waiting to see the keeper feed them. He was feeding them 5 pails of fishes, i think. many many fishes... N the penguins were swimming here n there. Saw the rockhopper penguins, which is the one that gets choked by a plastic in HAPPY FEET. It really hops on rocks. Very cute!

However, there's oni one restaurant outside b4 u enter de birdpark, n it sells really expensive food, so we didn't eat lunch. but we ate Ben n jerry's!

Why do girls hv to put make up? BAD for the skin leh. Even worse for the wallets...

anson hu

2008-03-26T17:31:00.002+08:00

!!!!

I just realised that Anson Hu is 1.8m !!! 1.8M! THAT's TALL!!!

PLS... please come to SINGAPORE.

N he has a song that's like crawling in the dark by hoobastank. though its ages ago but i jus realised it only today, n ppl were saying bad things bout him.

WELL. I shan't care, cos he's still talented. CAN't DENY THAT! =)

Come s'pore leh, though it's one small dot.

http://you.video.sina.com.cn/b/8948089-1205522285.html

http://you.video.sina.com.cn/b/10675859-1231818692.html

WednesDay

2008-03-26T16:04:00.002+08:00

Eating KFC for lunch, in front of a comp, watching videos online, clicking with the new mouse that i bought. :) I wish everyday could be like this. Though, i'd much prefer to skip the part where i had to carry all those stuff that i bought, being caught in a jam due to construction works on the road packed with so many cars, being in a bus with pri sch students, one having a HANDPHONE. I wonder when my generation hv kids, will they hv handphones in kindergarten?

watching veronica mars online makes my day even better.

Dear Lord, pls don't let it rain tml...

heels

2008-03-22T12:22:00.003+08:00

I can now say that i'm able to wear heels for more than 5 hrs. *claps* and my sis wore a TUBE DRESS without a jacket. *claps again* Thanks to my cuz... TORTURE! I'm able to walk down and up a stairs, with heels. Training calf muscles.

The fearless cat...

2008-03-20T13:21:00.002+08:00

Who says cats are scaredy cats?

Anyway, this particular cat that i saw this morning at my house, is just the opposite. It was cleaning itself on the road in the right lane, and there was a car just behind it. Yet, it didn't even bother bout the car, that is so much huger than itself. And just continue to sit there, blocking the lane that the car wanted to pass. It was so amusing. The car owner tried to honk the cat away, but to no avail. Then he tried to flash the lights at it. It still doesn't wana move. SO... obviously, after trying these methods, waiting for the cat to move its butt away, which doesn't, the owner had to reverse and go to the other lane.

HAHA...

hiding in the cave

2008-03-18T20:33:00.002+08:00

I feel that i'm hiding in a cave, all safe n cosy, yet is vulnerable to attacks. I can't open up. It's just difficult, and i can only be my true self with my family. I like having friends but i hv this insecurity in me. Many times i've realised that i actually dun hv a good fren that i can communicate with. And ppl surrounding me hv great, close frens that they can talk to. N even if i really wana speak to someone, they all seem BUSY.

my heart feels burdened...

I would really like to continue hiding... nice and cosy, being who i am.

SIDETRACKED:

NV organise a big and fancy gathering on ur b'dae. ESPECIALLY 21st. and if u do, PLEASE, PLEASE dun invite me. ITs so troublesome ok!!! HINT TO CUZ. i think oni girls hv these parties, so i'll hv to wait like 16 yrs for my youngest cousin to celebrate her 21st. by then, i'll BE OLD! and i can dress wadever i like.

more CX

2008-03-13T22:43:00.002+08:00

I WATCHED THE HORTONS!!! great movie! =) but it would hv been better if my mum could come. ate finished the popcorn after dinner... i wonder if popcorn has high fibre in it. Hmm, so i could, you noe, get it out of me... *oops*

Anyway... MY COUSIN bf is a FRIEND OF JIAXI!!! muahaha... SO, if they could just get married and invite them, i'll get to see both of them. Hopefully. One can hope. =)

My sis got bitten by a mozzie! haha! she realised it during dinner time, then i told her wad i blogged. Now, she has asked the mozzies to come attack me again when sleeping tonight. Haiz... Our mentality is like that of a 13 yr old. That's y i dun really like to talk to ppl. so PAISEH!

CX!

MOZZIES

2008-03-13T12:13:00.002+08:00

What's up with these mosquitoes huh? Attacking me when i'm unaware... and ATTACKING ONI ME in the family. WHAT'S THIS HUH... Biaseness? Prejudice? they dun even get bite once? and me: 5 times?

TSK TSK

I enjoy watching tv everynite at 9!!! =) *silly grin again*

i still feel left out

2008-03-11T18:54:00.001+08:00

I FOUND CHENGXI's BLOG!!! www.kangchengxi.blogspot.com i'm so tempted to tag on his blog. oops.... =) *grins*

2008-03-11T16:26:00.002+08:00

I'm so crazy over these guys at the moment! though they look not veri gd at first glance, but it just keep getting better. =) THEY'RE TWIN BROTHERS. kang jia xi n kang cheng xi. and they both acted in dramas before.

Oh my... so SHUAI!

i'm just a typical girl... haiz. my fren says he look so girl. I DUN CARE!

n this is kang jia xi's bloglink:

http://community.mediacorp.com.sg/TV/CS/blogs/jiaxi/default.aspx

HAPPY!!!

2008-03-11T12:31:00.002+08:00

so now... gone are the badminton aches, and here comes the jogging aches.

My mum said that i was old, being 20 yrs old... while discussing Jeff chang's age on tv.

how could 20 yrs old be OLD???

2008-03-09T11:08:00.003+08:00

I felt a sense of warmth when i see these grps of elderly people come to church every wk n share about their lives in smaller grps. 3 different generations in the same church worshiping the same God. So awesome and touching...

I wish i was more open in sharing. But in moments like this, my mind goes blank especially when its more than one person.

I pray for openness, in heart and in mind.

2008-03-07T11:55:00.003+08:00

Gone are the cycling aches and HERE COMES the badminton aches...

Am i getting old?

NAh... just lazy

Guess wad this is?

a wombat is not a bat as my dear fren Nadiah says. I couldn't stop laughing. Imagine this wombat to be a flying bat... High chance that it may fall when hanging upside down, n suffer head injuries. =)

Leap year day!

2008-03-01T20:06:00.002+08:00

CYCLING!!! after so many yrs of either walking or jogging, CYCLING! wee... =)

My butt, legs and arms ACHE. which is usual esp. since i haven done it like maybe 10 yrs.

WEE... thanks for willing to cycle with me!

Farm and whales

2008-02-24T11:43:00.007+08:00

I missed out something REALLY impt from the Perth trip... I rode on a HORSE!!! For the 1st time! something that i really wanted to do.

Here's my sister on a horse in the farmstay:

a hen on my hand. (rhymes) It hurts a little when it pecks for the food, and its feets are scratchy. But i enjoyed it!

I think this is the only pig in the farm, n it ate all the leftovers of our lunch n dinner. the owners had a hard time calling it. they called her *pig pig* . VERY CUTE!!! n it actually comes after a while.

These are the owners of the farm. The guy is already a grandfather, n he doesn't look that old! n the lady wearing the purple blouse wans to be a nurse! well... I wouldn't really recommend anyone to be a nurse. UNLESS they are really passionate abt it n has experience wad is it like before. They are really NICE!

We went to the Whale World before the trip to the farm.

Whales are really huge! initially we thought that we could actually go out to the sea n see whales but we're wrong. Jus got to see the skeletons... Better than nth. Haha.

Can't really imagine it on a sperm whale... Hmmm...

update more some other time...

dim sum dollies!

2008-02-22T14:35:00.002+08:00

It was great watching them perform yesterday at the esplanade with Abby. It was even better that singapore won the YOG bidding which the Dim Sum Dollies "hinted" in the play, cos we didn't get to watch tv for the results. During the interval, s'pore flags were distributed and we were flagging at the end of the show. FUN!

Proud to be a Singaporean! =)

Blogs.

2008-02-20T21:16:00.003+08:00

I love reading blogs! though i do not tag, and prefers to read annoymously. One can learn quite a no. of interesting things from a not so close friend to the closest friend. n u can oso have conversations based on wad u read. SO... now u noe everyday wad i've been doing for the past few years.

A cat n a dog which isn't bother by each other's company. Not seen often in my case, my dear CHERRI. And i was in a lift with a very calm jack russell terrier "whom" doesn't mind getting walked by a small little boy in the lift when getting home. Jack russell VS small little boy (with no parents, ALONE)... Usually, the boy loses. I'm in love with the dog already... When can my CHERRI be like tat? ONE DAY...

Kungfu dunk is a GOOD movie. very entertaining! Jay looks better now! with the very cute hairstyle. LOL... I think Hari really enjoys the movie! Let's watch CJ7 soon. N i bought my new SHOES, with HEELS. =) I shall not fall down because of a shoe. =D

2008-02-18T13:55:00.003+08:00

I realised there are still times when loneliness is experienced even though friends surround me. There're still times when i would very much prefer to leave and be surrounded in crowds of strangers, where i'll feel in a way "freed". I dun like knowing that i don't really know how to create conversations, or not meeting expectations that i've created myself thinking that these are the same expectations ppl hv of me.

Would i ever be comfortable with certain groups of ppl?

MOO... This is the dear cow that let most of us on the tour milked her. very calm. I wonder wad she was thinking at the milk feeding session. Hearing the mooes of a cow is a SPECIAL experience. A lil like the one in the advertisement, but it can nv be the same as in reality. It also has a really cute hairstyle! Hmm...