i wish i still can be excused from my mistakes by my age. I wish i can always be the youngest, so ppl would be easier on me. i wish i could be more efficient in things that i do. I wish ppl could teach, not teach combine with scolding.i wish they can tell me wad to do, n not expect me to noe smth that no one has ever tell me before. how am i to noe smth when i dun even noe it exists? the feeling of non existence and of no use.

I duno whether this is smth that He wants me to do. where shld i head to? can i work in a farm? or somewhere with little civilisation but the ppl there kind? gosh...

i wish my talents could be more obvious. so i would noe wad to do.

alrite... gotta go slp. 4 days of waking up at 540 has changed my biological clock. I'm going to wake up at 10!

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