i finally get to listen to the CD. very happy! I hope he'll hv a concert here. =)

2 days off! gotta utilise it. meeting up with frens, family, church n CO!!! schedules out. NEED TIME MANAGEMENT skills!

Watching videos.... Listen to cd first... =)

I felt that the reason why i was asked to present a case to Sister was so that i can know, she's actually not a very scary person. Now i feel that i can talk to her, n whatever she pointed out to me, i can learn smth frm it. There's always a reason why God puts u in difficult positions. I oso think that i'm still not giving up on this job is because i can be a blessing to others, just like how God blesses me.

STAY CHEERFUL!!!!

GOD is indeed good! I was singing that song the minute i wake up, so that i won't be so upset bout waking up early in the morning, and be moody. That really works, cos then i would be thinking about other things instead of dreading to go to work.

Did i mention that i was suppose to do a mini case study presentation today during roll call? I didn't do it today!!! cos i was in another diff cubicle. Yeah!!! n the sister didn't say anything bout it. So... GREAT!!! n today is the 'first' time i get to leave that place exactly at 3! this has not been the case for like 2 wks? n not having breaks. Though i didn't eat during break again, i get to eat the DELICIOUS DONUT from 4 leaves, bought yesterday. VERY NICE! The sun is shining very bright today isn't it? no rain today. SO hot till i felt sunburnt. But it's great! since it has been raining for many days.

All praise to GOD!!! n i finally send out the cards yesterday! finally, i was able to write finish. =) Survivor's finale today, n i'm afternoon shift tml. so i can watch it, though its for 2 hrs. Haiz... I wish i can slp for more than 10 hrs. =) =)

i'm BUSY!!! i'm busy with dunno wad. very busy till i skip my meals... busy till i dun drink water. Till i got difficulty speaking of decreased saliva production. Decreasing the chances of spitting saliva when passing report. Morn shift: eating dinner only. Afternoon: Breakfast n some "rubbish" for lunch ravaged from the fridge. Night shift is da best. Night: All meals, including supper! oh wait a min, that's only when there is food bought or cook by my mum. If not, i'll jus find smth frm the fridge again. That's my life basically... SIGH... HUGE SIGH. i really hope my wt will be a decreasing trend, not increasing. cos after skipping meals, i ate my dinner, FULLY. so i think the skipped meals is of no point.

Anyway, today... (SIGH) SISTER, the one i'm particular scared of, asked me to present a case on fri, when i'm morn shift. (SIGH). I kinda brought it to myself (zi zao de). Pt on antibiotics, i dunno wad infection, think it can be UTI. but i wasn't very sure. That i go n tell her i not veri sure, n i oso screwed up when i didn't noe much bout his dressings. so i KANNA LAH. have to do research la. esp on the meds. but i dun think she'll ask me much on the meds. NOT SURE LA. However, the special thing is tt when she serve meds with me, n i didn't noe the answer cos it wasn't in the mims *long story* causing me to do the case study, i felt calmer, not that scared anymore, no heart palpitations etc etc. I think it's because of God's word in the morning.


A quotation in our church’s Advent devotional guide caused me to rethink my approach to Christmas:

“Let us at all costs avoid the temptation to make our Christmas worship a withdrawal from the stress and sorrow of life into a realm of unreal beauty. It was into the real world that Christ came, into the city where there was no room for Him, and into a country where Herod, the murderer of innocents, was king.

“He comes to us, not to shield us from the harshness of the world but to give us the courage and strength to bear it; not to snatch us away by some miracle from the conflict of life, but to give us peace—His peace—in our hearts, by which we may be calmly steadfast while the conflict rages, and be able to bring to the torn world the healing that is peace.”

When Mary and Joseph presented the infant Jesus to the Lord, Simeon said to them: “Behold, this Child is destined for the fall and rising of many in Israel, and for a sign which will be spoken against (yes, a sword will pierce through your own soul also), that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed” (Luke 2:34-35).
Christmas is not a retreat from reality but an advance into it alongside the Prince of Peace.

Christ did not come to shield us from
The grief and pain of life;
But those who have His peace inside
Can thrive within the strife. —Sper

I felt that i've this peace within me. Thank you God! =)

I'm really confused at the ward. Half of the time, i dun really noe what i'm doing. Jus that i'm not harming the patient. I really need to spend some time asking certain things, but she's like so busy, or fierce in a way, cos she's actually veri nice. Difficult to describe. I'm afraid of failing. N i've paid the deposit for a trip to PERTH!!! on 7 feb, CNY. Really hope i can go and explore the world which God has created. Not really sure whether nursing is for me, cos it's stressful, u not oni hv to face patients, but oso their family, doctors n other nurses esp SISTERS.
Now we dun hv lecturers beside us. our destiny is like in the hands of who we are working with. Everyday skipping my breaks cos i really dun hv time for that. in a way, its good cos i can slim down, hopefully. and oso save money for my trip. =) Very de tired. Will it be better if i work with animals instead? Uncertainty n questions with more questions n lack of confidence... Need to cont to pray.
Just watched the GOLDEN COMPASS! the effects are really gd. N i like the polar bear. Whenever i say the polar bear, KY will say armour bear, cos a polar bear won't be able to fight. Haha. will be watchin the chipmunks tml. Happy! waited for this movie for quite a while. then will be going for work at night. First day of my night shift. Interesting, hope i'll be able to stay awake!

HACHIKO WAITS. A storybook for younger children. Very touching true story that happens in Japan. Worth a read. N u can learn some Jap words too. Hmm.. like futon. Can't rem wad it means now. oops...

Nxt is a pic of a X'mas LOG CAKE. brought back by my mum, given by her colleague. Doesn't have much of a chocolatey taste, more like a swissroll actually... A LARGER one in size.


Kinda drained out. sometimes i'm alrite, sometimes not. It's probabl time for me to slp, but i really wan to watch the online videos. N so... i'm going to do it now.

I'm not sure whether my decisions are rite.

Does Santa really exist? I only know for sure Jesus Christ is definitely born on that day. And note the PRESENT TENSE. "IS".

I can feel my energy just draining out of me right now. Very tired. Esplanade is a complicated place for me. Transportation is veri troublesome. Even though Singapore is SO SMALL, just travelling around tires me. Can't really imagine staying in USA or Aust. I'll be in pain, just walking from one street to another. LOL.

The Beautiful Sunday concert is OVER. O.V.E.R. Yeah! NOW... one more annual concert in sch to go. Just thinking of that tires me. Dang... RENEW ME!!!

Shall go watch my online videos right now.........

I thought i'm not scared of death... However, when death is just around the corner, you get vulnerable again.

I'll continue to stand strong in God, believing in the power of prayers. There is nothing that God cannot do.

I'm getting a little confused, regarding my role as a student nurse, an elder sister, the eldest daughter, a grand daughter, a performer, a child of God, a friend...